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March 05, 2006

Long live the weeds and the wilderness

It was good to be in Scotland, in the snow, wind and wildness. Good to give a little bit of practical help: designing an order of service for the funeral, helping with the words of a non-religious ceremony, feeding the animals, walking the dog, preparing huge dinners for when the rest of the family arrived. I managed to read Remember Me by Christina Rossetti at the funeral without being overcome, but had been crying so – some may have thought I was reading a poem called “Rebebba Be”.

My aunt wears the shawl I made her for Christmas all the time – even to the funeral. And the greatest compliment possible: the hat I made for my darling uncle to comfort his poor head after his operation (it was knit and sent out too fast for pictures to make it onto the site), was worn by him not only in life, and at his marriage to my aunt just three months ago, but also in death for his cremation.

Of course I couldn’t handle the amount of thought required for working on a design of my own, for knitting while I was up there. So I took some of this grey cashmere, and Eunny’s Print o’ the Wave stole pattern. It was perfect, and while I was there I finished half of the main section – the stole will be even more precious for its associations. I found great comfort from working in a tradition, on a piece with history and relevance – a Shetland lace pattern while staying a (relative) stone’s throw from the Isles, a pattern of waves as I looked out on Little Loch Broom, in the same grey as the clouds that swept in over the mountains, blanketing and reblanketing everything with clean snow. Back in London, it smells of the woodsmoke from the fire with a temperamental chimney.

dundonnell shawl

This is the other poem that was read at the funeral. I love it now and will forever. John is gone – but long live the wildnerness.

Inversnaid

This darksome burn, horseback brown,
His rollrock highroad roaring down,
In coop and in comb the fleece of his foam
Flutes and low to the lake falls home.

A windpuff-bonnet of fawn-froth
Turns and twindles over the broth
Of a pool so pitchblack, fell-frowning,
It rounds and rounds Despair to drowning.

Degged with dew, dappled with dew,
Are the groins of the braes that the brook treads through,
Wiry heathpacks, flitches of fern,
And the beadbonny ash that sits over the burn.

What would the world be, once bereft
Of wet and wildness? Let them be left,
O let them be left, wildness and wet;
Long live the weeds and the wilderness yet.

Gerard Manley Hopkins

Posted by Anna at March 5, 2006 08:10 PM

Comments

I am so sorry for your loss. I understand how it feels having lose a good friend to an accident last year. Take care...

Posted by: Jade at March 6, 2006 09:14 PM

I hope that you find much love and warmth being wrapped in that stole. That cashmere looks perfect for healing one part of the corner in your soul :)

Posted by: stinkerbell at March 6, 2006 09:19 PM

I was just thinking about you, you were missed in blogland.

Posted by: yahaira at March 6, 2006 09:33 PM

you have the most beautifully eloquent way of writing things. a very moving post. i hope the shawl brings you both comfort and warmth.

Posted by: jacqueline at March 6, 2006 09:37 PM

I'm glad your back, safe and sound. Many hugs.

Posted by: Leisl at March 6, 2006 09:40 PM

A very moving post Anna. I am truly sorry for your loss.

Posted by: Mary at March 6, 2006 09:45 PM

The poem is beautiful, as is your stole. I hope they both give you fond memories of your uncle for many years to come. Take care of yourself.

Posted by: Robin at March 6, 2006 09:53 PM

What a lovely poem. And how special is that about the hat you made him. Makes me teary.

Posted by: Scout at March 6, 2006 10:02 PM

May your memories live long too. A beautifully written post,full of love for your uncle and your family.
The stole is gorgeous.

x

Posted by: Emma at March 6, 2006 10:08 PM

Welcome back. I am sure it was a great comfort to your family to have you there at this special time. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. We missed you.

Posted by: kim at March 6, 2006 10:46 PM

Thanks for a lovely post, Anna, and for the Manley Hopkins. A great poem for a great-sounding man, and in both instances I mean 'big, and wonderful'.

Posted by: Philippa at March 6, 2006 11:04 PM

Anna - I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for posting the poems. Take care of yourself, and find solace in your knitting.

Posted by: christine at March 6, 2006 11:04 PM

You have me sniffling . . . but in a good way! So much love in those poems and in those handknits....

Posted by: --Deb at March 6, 2006 11:14 PM

So poignant! It's obvious you live and experience life fully, even the painful parts. Bravo!

May your healing come swiftly.

Posted by: Leah at March 7, 2006 01:00 AM

How wonderful that you both knew how much you meant to each other, and how special that others knew it as well.

Posted by: Carrie at March 7, 2006 02:21 AM

Thats a lovely poem. Really meaningful. I hope you found closure the past few days on the Scottish wilderness.

Posted by: kessa at March 7, 2006 07:14 AM

good to have you back, anna.

Posted by: kris at March 7, 2006 09:48 AM

Glad you're home safely, and that you've something comforting to knit. It sounds like a good sort of sad farewell ~x~

Posted by: Jane in London at March 7, 2006 11:44 AM

As someone who also lost a beloved uncle recently, I share your sadness. We also had the Christina Rossetti poem at the funeral.

Glad that your handiwork is giving comfort.

Posted by: Anne at March 7, 2006 11:57 AM

The stole looks lovely and I'm glad to hear that you made it home safely. I hope that life gradually shifts into a more comfortable pattern for you. Take good care. xx

Posted by: kerrie at March 7, 2006 02:54 PM

What a beautiful poem, and post, Anna! Long live the weeds and the wilderness, and the lovely memory of your uncle.

Posted by: Carrie at March 7, 2006 02:55 PM

Hopkins is such a marvelous poet. I'm particularly fond of "The Windhover," myself.

Your stole is beautiful even in its rough, unblocked state. It's going to be a stunner when it's finished and blocked.

Posted by: Beth S. at March 7, 2006 04:16 PM

I am always so glad to read your beautiful posts, even if the topic is a sad one. You have such a lovely eloquence.

Posted by: Gina at March 7, 2006 05:00 PM

Ah, C.R. loved to write about "crossing." One of the only poems I know by heart is her "When I am dead my dearest, sing no sad songs for me. . .".

Sorry to hear about your loss.

Posted by: Ingrid at March 7, 2006 07:33 PM

*sending lots of love and hugs*
I lost my some of my family members these few years...and it's never been easy. It's an amazing thing how knitting could help us find comfort, isn't it?

Too bad I could never understand poems, it sounds beautiful.

Posted by: yuvee at March 7, 2006 08:20 PM

I'm so sad for your loss Anna. How wonderful that your knitting brought comfort to your family (and yourself) in life and even after!

Posted by: Debi at March 7, 2006 09:46 PM

What beautiful poetry. Anne, I'm glad you ae doing alright. It sounds like the funeral was a beautiful one. Your descriptions of Scotland make me long to be there. Many hugs to you.

Posted by: Avivah at March 8, 2006 01:13 AM

So sorry to hear of your loss. I carry a copy of Gerard Manley Hopkins' "Pied Beauty" around with me in my Filofax. He is so densely expressive.

Posted by: April at March 8, 2006 02:05 AM

I stumbled into your blog. I was caught by the colors..then I read..sorrow and grace.
The last few words of the poem are beautiful--rich for thought:
Long live the weeds and the wilderness yet!

Posted by: Tongue in Cheek at March 8, 2006 09:19 AM

You handle you grief with grace. I hope the knitting brings solace and healing.

Posted by: loopsandsticks at March 8, 2006 01:55 PM

"horseback brown" - I love that. Your stole is lovely and I'm sure will serve you well as a warm reminder of your uncle. I think it takes another knitter to understand that more than yarn is knit into a piece. Sweaters, shawls and hats have memories...

Posted by: Vicki at March 8, 2006 06:13 PM

What a marvellous poem, and a great way to be remembered. Best wishes and sympathy to you, your aunt, and all who will remember your uncle.

Posted by: Kitty at March 8, 2006 06:59 PM

Lovely post. So sorry for your loss.

Posted by: Jenny at March 9, 2006 07:09 AM

Thank you for sharing both of these poems.. it sounds like the service you helped create was very fitting for your uncle and the place he chose to live. Take care of yourself as you move through grief; I am glad you have the Print of the Wave as a companion.

Posted by: Birdsong at March 10, 2006 06:44 PM

Lovely post, lovely poem, best wishes.

Posted by: Diane E. at March 11, 2006 08:18 PM

just a question,
where did you get your houndstooth patter?
did you make it yourself.
cool jumper btw!

Posted by: theo at May 9, 2006 10:33 AM

It is such a joy to find other people who love Hopkins. He's so obscure that most people who know him at all only know "The Windhover" and "God's Grandeur," but it's so exciting to find someone who's read enough of his poetry to know poems that aren't commonly anthologized. "Inversnaid" is definitely one of my favorites of his; also "Epithalamion."

Posted by: Mary Catherine at May 12, 2006 01:12 AM